Gosh is this what getting old is like. I feel like I'm in my 30s already. Damn being in a relationship it got me sooo accustomed to being around someone all the time. Growing up I chose to be alone part of the time and the others I didn't have a choice; single mom had jobs (still has jobS) and a life beyond me so she was out a good bit and I took advantage of it. On the phone weekdays till 12am with my boyfriend, sneaking him (well walking him in the house) for our lil trysts, but mainly just walkin aboutthe house however I damn well pleased, giving myself mini makeovers, not showering till it was absolutely necessary etc etc (yeah I know there was absolutely no punctuation there)
The point is being in a relationship changed me from a self reliant person unafraid of being along to this puddle of nothing-ness that putters about her room all day capable of not stepping foot outside for an entire weekend. I know its stupid.
I want a lil hunny not a fcuk buddy, I'm never comfortable around those I need someone that I can have a conversation with...Someone that I choose. I think it would be better if I had a male friend in the area that just wanted to be a male friend.
Hmmm how long does it take a guy to shower?? Cuz it has been about 90 mins now......{looks around} I think he fell asleep.

Tyra Show: Is there a problem with a guy in a relationship going to a strip club at least once a week? Does it matter if he comes home to you?

Well with me I don't like competiton that's why I can't even watch porn for long with my partner (when I had one). Man you see those camera angles and start to wonder how to I look when I'm in that positon....do I still look cute....oh her butt is bigger and cuter than mine....Whoa I never thought to do that is he sending me a message. Yuzimi it's a problem I prefer to avoid, if I'm into you I don't need any enhancements to turn me on...if you have a certain preference say so I'm not a damn mindreader......

Okkkaayyyyy I think its Dr. Sue time again the tightness in the neck & shoulders, the crabbiness in the voice
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
DO NOT pick up that phone!

I could probably blog about 5x a day since I am on spring break but that would be so ouvertly pathetic.
....walking up a hill with a 90 degree slope.
Talking about walking, I am getting chunky in my waist and my butt. I need to do some squats. I don't usually exercise...I guess sex was my exercise Somebody help !!! I don't wanna be the next Mo'Nique (from the Parkers) or Latifah. I think I would die if my boobs were ever that big.
If I could have anyone's body from head to toe I think I would get either Kelis (she has great legs and I would like to continue that legacy) or Shakira nice curves, Eva Mendez great proportions.
If I could choose one body part I would want Iman's boobs trust me they stand way up even at here age, I saw the pics.
hmmm whatelse can I bore you with,,,,what other random thoughts come to mind?
Hmmm nothing. Sigh, Sigh, Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh thats all I have energy for.