Lord I think the worst sin is procrastination...

Funny, I don't even think that was on the tablets Moses brought down from the mountain...Anyway I am the #1, A Class procrastinater.....So sickening but I can't even help myself.

Anyway why am I now finding out about Skype? It could have prevented arguments and the inappropriateness of typing some of the stuff I did on MSN mssgr. Dammit! but knowing me would it have really made a difference or just prolonged the inevitable????

But it is nice to hear your voice on the weekend just before I fall asleep. Reminds me of the early days when I would fall asleep on the phone and you would wait to see if I would somehow wake back up....after 10mins and pressing the phone buttons you would hang up...but not even be mad at me the next day.

I'm also an insomniac and I've realized that after almost 2 years I haven't gotten back accustomed to sleeping alone. I like spooning, I like curling up on someone's chest while I watch TV, I like owning someone's body doing whatever I want with it whenever I feel...It's comforting, it's calming, it's familiar.

Being in another relationship sharing with someone new it doesn't scare me but frustrates me...it's a lot of effort and time only for that person to move on again...another piece of me: my history, my dysfunctions, my joys , my hangups ...just all out there for yet another person to remember me by.

Are guys supposed to know you don't approach a girl right off the bat saying you want a relationship so we need to get to know each other....

I don't speak up...I'm not interested in you don't find you attractive - but we could be friends there is probably stuff I can learn from you...But what is your purpose coming into my life. It frustrating when ppl say stuff like it is God working...I will never want to kiss you or love you romantically so why have you entered my life with such strong, definite feelings for me...and you are so bold with them.... You really don't know me cuz the more pushy you get is the less nice, polite and accomodating I will continue to be.
I am not the girl for you and I will tell you that soon... I just don't have the time now - it's finals time.
Always the same someone I can learn from as a friend yet doesn't want to be just a friend...How am I going to grow? I guess I really need to teach myself.

Rough times ahead Captain...good thing there is www.youtube.com for stripping tutorials. Life is a journey not a destination.

Peace!