Song by SV

I always loved this song. I don't know who sang it originally but the version I know is by Sarah Vaughn. This is what I aspire to...God Bless the Child who has his own.

Them that's got shall get
Them that's not shall lose
So the Bible said and it still is news
Mama may have, Papa may have
But God bless the child that's got his own
That's got his own

Yes, the strong gets more
While the weak ones fade
Empty pockets don't ever make the grade
Mama may have, Papa may
God bless the child that's got his own
That's got his own


Money, you've got lots of friends
Crowding round the door
When you're gone, spending ends
They don't come no more
Rich relations give
Crust of bread and such
You can help yourself
But don't take too much
Mama may have, Papa may have
But God bless the child that's got his own
That's got his own


Mama may have, Papa may have
But God bless the child that's got his own
That's got his own
He just worry 'bout nothin
'Cause he's got his own

Have you made it on ZANZ

Obviously I've abandoned my primary board cuz my name is not mentioned as an example for anything. Time to put some work in. I'm joking but this post was funny. LPH stands for Lone Pubic Hair dais d man screen name and he is hilarious and relentless...yea I'm a Pubey groupie. I alone call him that everyone else calls him Pubes. lol

*Disclaimer - This is directed at no-one in particular except that it is directed at everyone. Cause frankly wunnuh is some funny mofos and I jus' doan give a feck*

Congratulations, if you are reading this it already tells me that you are well on your way to making it on zanz. Why? Because everything I write is genius and should be read as often as humanly possible.

Having A Groupie

Have you ever been standing up in a fete minding your own business and out of the blue some one siddles up to you and says "Hi ? Or for the more advanced of you "Hi . Have you had to say "Wait...wuh gine on boss/girl?" while in the back of your mind you trying to figure out who this person is, or even if you should run like hell? Yes, if you have a forum groupie (or a froupies as i call 'em) or two you have definitely made it on this forum.

The Hate Topic

There you are, minding other people's business as usual and out of the blue..."I hate " pops up. Have you made it? Hell no! It just means that people hate you. However...if after your hate topic emerges, you get no less than 2 pages of people saying that you are not a bad person, then you have definitely made it.


Club Xtreme

Ah yes the official Zanz party spot. If you are a partier in this club well I am sure the owner thanks you for your business. If you know the owner and can greet him/her by their first name have you made it? Feck no yuh lil brown nose. What you need to do is to take your little brown nosing self out of the Xtreme owner's ass and stick it between the forum's admins' asses. Who cares who you know in the real world. You are so much more important to us in cyber-land.


The Zanz Lime

The good old forum get together. Have you ever been to one? Do you know who Libra is? how about General Solidus? Have you drank with a soca whore? Is going to these limes an effective way of making it on this forum? Sadly the answer is no. Going to these limes serves no purpose save for getting you away from your precious keyboard and drunk. While getting drunk with zanzers is likely to cause you to be "made", it is more effective if you invite them all to your house and get plastered while posting on the forum.


The Forum Love Affair

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Zanz of Our Lives

The award winning strip by yours truly is a sure fire way to become "made". Some of the most popular zanzers have graced the panels of that strip. People like Chelsea, Loch, Piper/Diesel, Ana and LPH. These are "made zanzers". You want t o make the strip, do c*nt. In fact do c*nt and act dumb about it. X³ will be "write" there waiting on your dumb ass...I mean yes I just want to help.

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This has been another X³ Public Service Announcement.

Ok I'm on my period but where is my perk that makes it all worth it?

Where is my damn boob increase for about a week before and during my period my boobs get nice and luscious and at least I feel I get something in return for the annoyance of menstruation, but where is it this month????

Have I angered the hormonal gods?????

Steupsssssssssssssssssssssss

Hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Gosh I KNOW my hair is mad at me.

I KNOW its saying.. "If dis @itch force me under that Andre Agassi or Hypnotic hat one more time this week.............."

Why do I wear my hair natural? Why have I always done this? What am I gonna do with it next.

I think its pathetic that I'm this age and have never had it texturized, jheri curled, relaxed/processed/creamed/permed...????

I have no idea why I'm so obstinate about my hair.

Even when I passed Common Entrance I didn't ask to get it relaxed. And that seemed like the normal rite of passage...High school = relaxed hair.

Maybe I wanted to be different instead of followin the herd.

Maybe I wanted to prove guys could still like me regardless of if it was all smooth and straight.

Or maybe I was scared to look like a frizzle fowl in 3 months when all my hair cut out b/c I couldn't or didn't have enough time to take care of it.

Why for so long stuff is scheduled around my hair?

I don't want a bald head but I want a change. I want to feel grown up. Havin one style all the time, stuffin my head under a cap, needing help to comb/ style my hair doesn't feel grown up.

I just want to feel put together whenever.

Her hair is a woman's crowning glory and 2nd to that is eyebrow grooming.
Hair really pulls togther your appearance so I would like something consistent so I can look good without having to plan in advance of an event to wash my hair, twist it, wear twists for a week then do a twist out afro.

Why
Why
Why
is so much agony attached to just bein natural and simple.

Hair I hope you are ready cuz a change is coming and ah don't want no backchats!

Lord I think the worst sin is procrastination...

Funny, I don't even think that was on the tablets Moses brought down from the mountain...Anyway I am the #1, A Class procrastinater.....So sickening but I can't even help myself.

Anyway why am I now finding out about Skype? It could have prevented arguments and the inappropriateness of typing some of the stuff I did on MSN mssgr. Dammit! but knowing me would it have really made a difference or just prolonged the inevitable????

But it is nice to hear your voice on the weekend just before I fall asleep. Reminds me of the early days when I would fall asleep on the phone and you would wait to see if I would somehow wake back up....after 10mins and pressing the phone buttons you would hang up...but not even be mad at me the next day.

I'm also an insomniac and I've realized that after almost 2 years I haven't gotten back accustomed to sleeping alone. I like spooning, I like curling up on someone's chest while I watch TV, I like owning someone's body doing whatever I want with it whenever I feel...It's comforting, it's calming, it's familiar.

Being in another relationship sharing with someone new it doesn't scare me but frustrates me...it's a lot of effort and time only for that person to move on again...another piece of me: my history, my dysfunctions, my joys , my hangups ...just all out there for yet another person to remember me by.

Are guys supposed to know you don't approach a girl right off the bat saying you want a relationship so we need to get to know each other....

I don't speak up...I'm not interested in you don't find you attractive - but we could be friends there is probably stuff I can learn from you...But what is your purpose coming into my life. It frustrating when ppl say stuff like it is God working...I will never want to kiss you or love you romantically so why have you entered my life with such strong, definite feelings for me...and you are so bold with them.... You really don't know me cuz the more pushy you get is the less nice, polite and accomodating I will continue to be.
I am not the girl for you and I will tell you that soon... I just don't have the time now - it's finals time.
Always the same someone I can learn from as a friend yet doesn't want to be just a friend...How am I going to grow? I guess I really need to teach myself.

Rough times ahead Captain...good thing there is www.youtube.com for stripping tutorials. Life is a journey not a destination.

Peace!

Ok I fucked up....I never fuck up a lil bit always big. Never small or medium fuck up it's always GRANDE. Of course I'm not going to get into it here, c'mon now that's not my personality again. All I will say is God is good, sound weird coming from me right. I'm not an atheist, I'm a christian so I guess that makes me a practicing christian but am I religious?...I even question it myself.

I deny deny deny stuff but I will say here and now that I am spoilt. I must be spoilt (heather you were right) because I always find a way to derail myself, I always find a new low to have to drag myself from. Maybe I like feeling like the underdog or maybe I just don't care...all I know is that either of these options don't feel like the REAL me.
Self-saboetage, self-fulfilling prophesy all of these things seem to be explanations for the stupid stuff I do in life.

Am I too demanding of myself...are my standards too high cuz worse decisions have been made by others...I mean there are career prostitutes and strippers, but at least they have issues that changed their mentality from a young age that caused them to make choices leading them to that point.

Sigh. I've never felt that anything in life I had that I earned...god blessed me with smarts if I had actually worked maybe I could have had a 1600 in SATs that's how I think...1360 is pitiful...but that's getting caught up in the numbers game but oddly enough that's the bulk of what is used to judge ppl in this world. It's never intrinsic worth, it's always some standardized number.

Grades, scholarships, jobs etc I always have the feeling of being lucky to have these accomplishments or God blessed me with basic smarts and me really applying myself and working hard could ONLY result in a Rhodes scholarship or some ridiculously high pinnacle of achievement. I guess what I'm saying in a nutshell is that I feel....average.

I'm a very weird person. Very feely feely though not outwardly to others....very sensitive without ever wanting to admit it. I just wanna be babied a lil bit. I just want someone else to be in charge of me for a while...

Maybe I'm spoilt because I feel that rules don't apply to me that I can work my way around stuff, do as I feel. That's arrogant, that's messedup. Whatever it is I need to learn to just do what I'm supposed to when I'm supposed to - not when I feel like getting around to it.

Sigh

Nobody's fault but mine
Nobody's fault but mine
Tryin' raise my soul to the light
Nobody's fault but mine

Thank you Nina Simone

One man's trash is another's treasure

But what is the first man hasn't really thrown away the item......

So I'm in the I-lab at school taking advantage of the free printing when someone hails me out.
Taj! How are you! So good to see you! You look so cute! (insert blush)

So we get to chatting she shows me her myspace page..asks for approval of a pic she put up that I was in. I looked bangin' so I acquiesced.

So we always see each other chat and leave...we never get around to hanging out and she would do a West Indian party once in a while but not all the time.
So I tell her I'm about to go home so she comes to hang out...

So we are chatting and I ask her about graduation. Oh did I mention we were on the same floor freshman year? but she had a FEW detours well but no matter... she is graduating now.
So she's a broadcasting major but she realizes now she wants to get into public relations instead of broadcasting. Did I mention this girl is cute, skinny but not bony, definitely has a butt and some tatas ( I learnt the "all you need is a mouthful" jingle from her freshman yr), a smooth chocolate complexion, some dimples, great smile and is oh so stylish,,,,and has a generally sweet disposition. Did I also mention in pics of us ppl always mistake her for me and vici versa...Even my mom did that once...it's serious ppl, but in person we don't look that alike.

So I ask her the dreaded question...what r u planning to do after...So she says she interviewed at a place in NY but with cost of living there and the pay she doesn't know about it...so I tell her ask them about how soon it may increase of just be sure about the offer, don't assume and she say yea..but sounds kinda half hearted.
So I'm like you don't seem like you wanna go
She's like ya it would be a great opportunity but I kinda wanna stay in this area.
So deductive Taj Watson asks...."Is he worth it? Do you think its gonna last?"
And she starts laughing and she gets this glow on her face and she holds back like she knows how annoyed ppl get when she gushes on and on about him so she doesn't want to be annoying so she holds back.
I say its okay.
So she starts talking about how great he is how they always hang out together and that after June she has to move anyway and they are thinking about moving in together.
She tells me he is even thinking about buying a condo thru NAKA (summin so) and she wants to do the same after her first year working.
He is great, like really great and they've been together for about a yr and a half.

Cool
So I ask his name

Champ

Lord who da fuck tell mih to axe dat

No reaction from me.....So where is he from? (I'm waiting to hear NY)

Well actually you know him....and you know his ex girlfriend she is your friend.....

She goes on quickly you know I had to get his history girl these guys around here etc etc...we joke about and move on the other convo's

^^^^^^^Hmph so I read the hesitation right earlier just for the wrong reason. Oh Ho Taj you need to fine tune your meter (duly noted)

Remember miss friend who met the new guy who is a dj and doesn't approve of black/white "douglarization" so to speak....Well it's her ex.

Interestingly enough in the year just after we graduated they broke up but I knew they were still fucking each other and because she only had "settling" options in the guy department so he was still her primary focus. I would call her on a Saturday afternoon and she would be at his apartment............
.......................................... from the night before.

Fast forward to them going out to dinner for her birthday this past December and her telling me and another friend (yea I know I ain't bout grammar right about now) that They are back together.
Huh?!?

Then by Carnival time thereabouts they were off again coincidentally about the same time she has a lil fling...Hmmm the not-quite-right-dick does wonders to keep your mind off "the right dick".
Hmmm I wonder if she knows he has a new girlfriend and just decided not to update us...
I wonder if she messed around with him not caring that he had a girlfriend....OR
I wonder if she told us they were back together so she wouldn't seem like a slut if we found out he had a gf (although thats unlikely,,,but then again how likely was it that he would be with 2 of my good friends) then she could say that he was trifling
OR....my head hurts well not really put I'm tired postulating

Bottom line, I'm not about to say anything one friend is happy and another is taking definite steps trying to move on. Interesting how one man's trash is another treasure the first gf (lol they got togther the 1st week of freshman orientation and it lasted 4, 4 1/2, 4 3/4 yrs depending on who you ask) has the complaint they don't hang together, he isn't super romantic and is more concerned with hanging with his boys ALL (majority of) THE TIME instead of her. However, now he is being a great boyfriend to someone else...same guy but different attitude. The girls are as different physically as they are personality wise, in culture and in nationality. Whoooow

I'm resisting the urge to pick up the phone and I'm gonna keep this one to myself. In going to tell the one person I possibly could tell about this I'm stopped in my tracks remembering that I've been on the receiving of many a conversation that starts with: "you have to promise never to tell anybody, never to discuss this with anybody, OK I am so serious..."
Me: O k OK
Then the verbal diarrhoa begins

Ummm I'm not gonna bash her maybe she realizes that I'm trustworthy or maybe she just can't keep a secret whichever way it goes I backspaced the last 4 digits of her number from my phone's dial mode (yeah my phone is tight like that last fo digits of ya ## baybeee) and came on here and told you the whole deal.
Now I'm telling you to Shaddup about it OK
you're a friend of mine not a friend of ours. Capice?



****************************Putting Lord and Fcuk in the same sentence just isn't right...sorry Lord

Read previous post b4 this one.

Ok so you thought the incident between Ria and Paul*** was over?
Hell naw
So on Monday Ria was havin the obligatory I hate him, I guess I never really knew him conversation, with the mutual friend who was sitting between her and Paul. He is a guy. So she is going on and on and on and she starts saying stuff like:
I wish he had told me
I wish he could have warned me
I wish he didn't lie to me and say he didn't have anyone in his life.

I guess its at this point Keron*** comes out of him "umm hmmm , yea, fuh real" stupor and says: "What was that? You tryna say you didn't know?"

Ummm no he never said a word weren't you LISTENING!!!!

oH HOOOOO
Well as dem seh - Mout open 'tory jump out!

So he makes her swear on a stack of Bibles not to go back and argue about this with Paul cuz he doesn't want to look like ah macomere man (a gossipy man...after all only women and children gossip)////girly man (According to Guv'nor Arhnold) {insert rolleye smiley here}

So he reveals to Ria that Paul told him, " I don't know why she had to act ignorant like that.....IT'S NOT LIKE SHE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT REBECCA***"

Lord aye!!!!!! Trouble!!!!! TROUBLE NOW

Is now d gyul gone orf d deep end cuz now he make her look like the hateful, can't-let-go, ignorant, CRAZY BITCH!!!!!!!

My girl now have to swear up and down to d grong (ground) that she din know before....She wanted us to call and find out his new address so she could confront him. She seh how vex she was she cudda key his car (Lexus) or BASH IN his windscreen.

Lord faddah ah feel it fuh she...ah real feel it.

The unkindest cut of all. Somehow I feel like I used this title already...

**** Made up names


Ok so here is the scenario:


(Paul)The boy is: rasta, righteous, loyal, humble, good friend, knowlegeable of a lot, has a long-term girlfriend that he has infrequent "breaks" with, he took this girlfriend/wifey's virginity, a good guy but on the day he took his girl's virginity he just had sex with her dance teacher (a big woman)...So he's just like anyone else striving for good but has faults.

(Ria)The girl is: a bit naive, caring, goal oriented, falls to fast, too eager to believe.

Can you guess which one I'm better friends with Lol.

So we are all in the same circle of friends both equally linked to me but not too linked to each other. She sees him at a party and doesn't want to exploit our friendship so thru her own links she gets his number and sets up the scene.


They talk till 4am for a while, then they start going out together, movies, laser tag, dinner, plays, friend limes etc. They have really in depth conversations and even exchange daily scripture readings and discuss them, if she is hungry he passes by her job and brings food. They are clearly friends.
They they start having sex and she is in total bliss: great guy, great sex all the feelings are there only time will help them to be closer (ie. it's a given eventually she will become his girlfriend)

WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOw could they be that close and he never told her about wifey (who lives in a different country), but okay they are going ahead and she keeps on living in hope for the day when he would like her enough to decide yeah she should be his girl.

In the meanwhile they go out, in the meanwhile she plans big activities for his birthday ie a laser tag party, then a big lime with food alcohol and all his closest friends. Cool.

Gradually he doesn't return her calls like he used to, dates are scheduled then meetings are cancelled only when she calls to ask what time she should get ready for, he doesn't answer his phone then calls back weeks later...mind you when he is on vacation - out of the country - he is totally blowing up her phone. So, being the notoriously laid back, non-confrontational guy he is he eventually says (only of course after she tries to get STAT [status of relationship]):

He isn't at that point in his life to..........(blah blah blah) {I'm sure u've heard this b4}
They can still remain friends............

They still email and call every other week
Still with the bible stuff
Updates on life. E.g.
Ria: hey I'm graduating looking for somewhere to live...
Paul: Really I'm trying to move too good luck with that...wish you the best
Ria: What's going on in life?
Paul: nothing I never really go out, haven't gotten to meet new ppl. It's the same old same old.


Fine? You think that sounds ok?
Yeah it sounds ok except that she still likes him more than I would like...and she still likes him more than she should.....
Because from the onset...knowing him, I knew they would not get together as boyfriend and girlfriend but telling her that would have had no effect so I let it go.

Of course there was the obligatory mess around after that initial lets be friends thing but it eventually gets to the point of that not even happening and you have an emailed conversation per what I typed above.


Fast forward a few months to a mutual friend's birthday lime:

She now has not had any contact with him for a good month....weird if they are supposedly "friends" right?
So I guess she calls to ask if he was gonna be there sorta to prepare herself...yes! we girls do stuff like that so we don't look pathetic in front of our crush/love of our life/whadeva....deaden the lingering feelings so you don't turn into a wide-eyed, blubbering, why-not-me, why-wasn't-I-good-enough girl.

Of course he doesn't answer his phone (I wish there was an "i told u so" emoticon)

So she is there at our friend's birthday lime and guess what... he shows up and ignores her...Ok, as soon as he enters she makes a beeline for his line of sight and he avoids her gaze. Bad sign...she is so intent and focussed on him she misses something she shouldn't have.

So the night goes on and on and he makes his rounds saying hi, partaking in convos, eating his food, (ital is vital...of course he is a vegetarian... he doesn't even use the sauce from the stew chicken to wet his rice and peas) and socializing.

Gradually she gets some sense and starts to live in reality once more and notice...
that:
Hey he seems to know this girl no one else does
Hey he doesn't leave this girl's side
Hey this girl probably came with him

Then secondarily she realizes it's a non-descript, brown haired but blue-eyed white girl!!

I'm not shocked yea he rasta but b/c of where he's from I knew he would only marry a girl that looks like him. Yea he's all about Emperor Makonnen but be assured the grade of hair and features of his wifey is gonna be way more "Ethiopian" than Nigerian, Haitian, or obviously stereotypically negroid. (Don't get it twisted jess because somebody "conscious"...you still have to know your friends!)
But this is not gonna turn into a bashing of white women taking "eligable" black men. I'll leave that issue to another friend of mine.

So eventually he comes close enough to her...actually they are sitting on either side of a mutal friend one of the few in the circle that knows they were even dealing.
Ria: Hey could I have a minute to talk to you?
Paul: How about in five minutes?
She is a lil confused and he carries on a conversation with someone...
Paul's guest is enroute to the bathroom this time so Ria tries again in low voices she's not tryna blow up a spot ppl have no clue about.
Ria: Sooooo, can we jus step outside now and talk?
Paul: No
Ria: What you mean no?
Paul: No I'm not gonna talk to you!
(At this point I would have said something like "oh that's how it is" and like the song says: Take dat an cool it!")
Well my girl got riled up.
Ria: So after everything and we supposed to be friends you can't even talk to me?!!?
Paul: No!
Ria: Why you don't wanna talk to me
Silence and he shakes his head.
Ria: Well don't EVER fuckkkin talk to me again!!!! NO calls nutten!!!

(Meanwhile from across the room conscious white chick with her hair tied up in a headwrap, and long skirt, and hippie head nodding in agreement to whatever is the topic of discussion is now giving cut eye from across the room.)

One friend thinks his non-confrontational manner led to this; that he was scared that she would have made a scene anyway so his solution was to simply evade her... (albeit unsuccessfully).
Me I say that's not giving him enough credit for his brain power...back to my belief that women make too many excuses for guys anyway.
There are so many ways during the course of the night he could have done things differently without it getting to a point where she needed to be calmed down. He could have said hi to her early up acted friendly then ignore her for the rest of the night (and it wouldn't have seemed like he was even ignoring her cuz he did say hi); he could have cut out the friend shit and just say I DONT LIKE YOU LIKE THAT, don't hope!; or he could have not pretended like he never met anyone; he could have given her a head's up and say I'll be bringing a friend.

To me he expected her to be ignored and take it....OR the other extreme {In highschool when your bf wants to break up with you, but not be the badguy (so to speak) he instead does assinine stupid things to get the girl mad and she ends up breaking up with him so she has the "power" and he doesn't feel guilty} Well he did that - he got her mad and he got her to say those damning words: I don't ever want to speak to you again...don't call, email nothing". I swear his heart probably skipped a beat as she said that..

So of course she is doing the steps to acceptance and she was in the stage of " I thought I really knew him" etc
Then she wanted to get even - find out where he moved to and have it out with him (bad idea yall r supposed to be never talking again)
Then she wants closure and for girls that equals hearing "I'm sorry. I was wrong." Kya kyakya bwwwwahahahahahhahahaha and I double over laughing as I typed that...sorry. Well that I know probably would never happen in this case as well as why open yourself to MORE frustration when you open your hurt heart up and you still don't hear those words.
So she feels betrayed etc.

Perception is ah hell of a thing yes. Another friend of ours who was there said she felt no tension between them, has a hard time believing the two had sex/relationsip of sorts, nothing...she even said, "he had his girlfriend since undergrad...and he never juss mess around with girls..." I think it was at this point I discontinued the conversation with her...
Her POV: This stuff that I'm telling you didn't happen, in the miniscule chance that it did Paul did nothing wrong and the white chick was cool. (lol this from the friend who thinks a black man dating a white girl indicates that he doesn't love himself/race and is disrespecting the pillar of beauty/mother who raised him)

Of course she is a lil self absorbed cuz she recently found the ideal guy who is still currently unattached from his girlfriend who he knew he had to break up with even b4 he met my friend?????? Hmmmm once you decide to break up with someone how long does it actually take to break up with them..

Anyways I ain't one to knock nuhboddy's freak juss doan come to me wit ah pack ah assness like:
He so spiritual when we talking he says stuff like god willing (roll eye)
He never slept over by his girl (of almost 2 years) and she never slept over (overnight) by him....EVER
His girl is a virgin (that could be true but that doesn't make the preceding sentence seem any more likely)
and lastly drum rollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
He's a DJ

***Why do girls always confer with their friend about whether a guy they checking good looking. I've even had a friend say, "I know he not supper good looking like guys I'm accustomed to...." like she apologizing fuh di man face...Yuh eva hear more?!?

***Puts hands on presentation pulpit looks up apprehensively with eyebrows raised and says: Ok :Lord my name is Taj and I'm a hater
Readers say: Hi Taj **and wave nerdishly back
Lord I am working on myself and I will stop gossiping/ complaing about my friends.....Wait! I does tell dem dis to deh face... I not gossiping
Hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (with head twerk and divalicious snap)
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Sigh I crack me up...I can't believe I typed all this shit. I need a life.
BTW if it's not clear my POV: he could have handled the situation better,,,he was more wrong than right...he's my friend and he's an asshole...But It's the truth!

Am I spoilt?

I've only just realized that I don't eat. And it isn't in an anorexic fashion its just like a choice regular mustard or honey mustard. I can't say its having an effect I think I'm the same size (I have no scale so I can't be sure). This is probably b/c when I eat my body hoards the nutrition...NO WASTE HEre mo fo we keepin all of this. Yeah

So I realized this weekend that I lived on a pack of oreos (the big one) and a bottle of sprite....from friday to Sunday. So pitiful so now I have to wonder if I am spoilt. I mean growing up food wasn't a big issue. If there was cooked food I ate if there was none I ate biscuits and juice...Boy were those summers long cuz even tho my mom is a teacher and technically was on vacation she never seemed to be home.

So am I unable to eat a meal unless it is prepared by someone else...cuz I'll eat out and buy food but if I have to cook it myself, I don't eat.
Isn't this weird, I'll stay hungry, I won't walk to the cornerstore and buy cereal and milk, isn't that crazy!!!!!!!! I don't even love myself enough to go to the grocery and feed myself. I don't even understand it and I am doing it to myself.
I only eat when I'm attending class I get something on campus,,,,so forget about having breakfast, something I always did and KNOW the importance of doing.

Sigh I need someone to cook for geez. maybe then I'll eat. Til then I'm accepting all dates. Damn that sounds chickenhead-ISH but damn a girl still needs to eat.

Only in BIM

EIGHTEEN-YEAR-OLD JASON ASHTON has no qualms about his night-time profession.

Three weeks ago he shocked some people when he boldly told a magistrate that he works at Bush Hill, St Michael, seeing after the welfare of prostitutes.
At the time Jason was in court on an assault charge.
He confessed he writes down the licence plates of cars picking up the women and makes sure they return safely. For that he is paid $10 out of each fare.

When the WEEKEND NATION caught up with Jason at his home in Gullyfield Avenue, Bayville, St Michael, he proudly said he was a pimp.
"You just wake me up. I got home about 7 o'clock this morning from at the Garrison," says Jason, rubbing his eyes.
It was around midday on a Tuesday.
But he became wide eyed as he spoke about being a pimp - almost glorifying his part-time job.
With a grin on his face, Jason, who is also a mechanic, says he has three women working for him at the Garrison. They pay him a small commission plus rent of $400 each.
When asked where the girls were, he says they were out shopping as the previous night was a good one for them.

Chief Magistrate Clyde Nicholls warned him to stay away from the popular Bush Hill - the main congregation spot for women of the night. But with a shrug of his shoulders Jason says he has no intention of following the Chief Magistrate's advice.

"This is big business in Barbados. I am not the only one. They are a lot of us who have girls," he says, calling some names.

Bursting with excitement, Jason exclaims that he was born to be a pimp.
He got into the business from age 16, when a relative, whom he says operates a strippers club, sent him overseas to get some girls.

"On my first trip I brought two girls for him. He told me to go down there and meet a man who would give me the girls to bring back. He gave me money and I brought the girls here and they stayed with me. My uncle told me to take them to the Garrison and show them the ropes. From then I used to be out there every day keeping them company," he says.
After he realised how lucrative the business was, Jason says he decided to break away from this relative and bring in the girls for himself.
Apart from this one, he points out that another relative also operated a club in the Nelson Street red light district several years ago.

"I grow up in this thing," he says.
And he says business is good.

"A lot of men does pick up these girls - lawyers, bankers, you name it - a lot of big boys. I does laugh when I hear them saying that they don't pick fares because I know they do," he says, pointing out that he even has some of the car registration numbers logged in his cellphone.
However, Jason says he provides "his girls" with protection since some people pass by the Garrison and throw eggs and stones at them.

"When they go into Town they does buy me brand name clothes and shoes. The girls does get out good."

Jason even believes prostitution should be legalised.
"I feel they should legalise prostitution. It is not a crime. I see people going thiefing and robbing but prostitution is honest work," he says. He also said that every night someone from the AIDS Society handed out condoms to the women at the Garrison.